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Pain Invading the Mind

Dealing with physical pain — Thanissaro Bhikkhu, also known as Ajahn Geoff.

This Dhamma talk is worth a listen from time to time since pain is many times our savage enemy that can easily grind you into dust and ruin you life. So, dealing with it takes some skill, which Ajahn Geoff from Thai forest Buddhist tradition talks about all the time. Listen during meditation. Try the technique. It’s all about where you set your awareness. This takes practice. But don’t worry. Since the pain isn’t going away you have plenty of time to learn and get it right.

The Buddha’s core instruction on physical pain is pretty brief. The most important part is to keep the pain from invading your mind and letting it take up residence. The goal is not necessarily to eliminate pain but instead to change your relationship with it.

Ajahn Geoff talks about the famous forest teacher Ajahn Lee who offers a practical guide. When pain arises, first focus on the comfortable parts of the body and breathe into those areas. That comfort can grow into a kind of foundation or a place to stand and eventually into a resource to direct through the pain itself. Rather than walling off the pain, you breathe through it because walls often maintain the very thing they were meant to contain.

The next step is to examine the stories and perceptions we build around pain. We tell ourselves the pain has been here for a long time and will continue, and in doing so we drag past and future suffering into the present moment. Dropping the stories can lighten the pain considerably.

You can also question whether the pain is as solid or permanent as it seems. Move your awareness toward the sharpest point of the pain, rather than away from it. This can sometimes reveal that the pain shifts and dissolves under close attention. The fact that it moves at all is many times revealing. I’ve noticed this many times. It’s obvious. I’ve also questioned whether I’m feeling the pain when my attention is directed entirely out of my body to other matters, such as a phone call, a story from a friend, or a TV program.

The larger point is that while pain may arise from causes beyond our control, what the mind does with it is very much under our control. With practice, that distinction can be seen and understood. Remember, everything in Buddhist mediation is a skill. You get good only with many years of practice.

That’s just one of Ajahn Geoff’s Dhamma talks. Here are hundreds more. It’s an absolutely amazing archive of Pāli Canon content. I visit daily.


Full Transcript

Pain is one of those things the Buddha says we have to learn how to endure. But he gives remarkably little instructions on how to endure it.

It’s not like painful words. We’re supposed to endure painful words, too. And we do get instructions on how to depersonalize the words, how to think about them in such a way that they don’t invade the mind and remain.

As for physical pains, the Buddha says that similarly we should try to keep the pains from invading the mind and remaining there. That should be our intention with regard to them. In other words, we don’t want them to go away necessarily. At least we don’t make that our purpose in dealing with them.

We want to understand what does it mean for them to invade, what does it mean for them to remain. This is something we have to figure out. And how does it happen?

The Buddha gives only a sketch on how we should deal with pain. It comes in as instructions on breath meditation under the section on feelings. Try to breathe in and out in a way that gives rise to rapture. Breathe in and out in a way that gives rise to pleasure. Breathe in and out sensitive to mental fabrication — feelings and perceptions. Perceptions are the labels we put on things, the images we use to tell ourselves what something is, what it means. And finally, calming mental fabrications as we breathe in and breathe out.

That’s about it.

For more detailed instructions in these areas, we have to look to the forest tradition. And Ajahn Lee specializes in those first two steps. Breathing in a way that gives rise to rapture and pleasure.

As he says, when there’s a pain in part of the body, first you focus on other parts of the body that you can make comfortable by the way you breathe. This serves several functions. One, it gives you a foundation to stand on as you deal with the pain. It also gives you a place to retreat. And it gives you some ammunition to use against the pain.

Because as we’ve noted, sometimes the simple fact that there is a pain there is something that you’ve brought into being yourself by the way you’ve worked with the raw material that comes from past karma. And by breathing in a comfortable way, you’ve got some ammunition to use against the physical pain, in that you can imagine whatever that raw material is being permeated by the comfortable breath.

Once the comfortable breath is established in the other part of the body, send it through the pain. See if that undoes some of the subconscious things you’re doing to aggravate the pain or even maintain the pain.

Sometimes we put a wall up around the pain in hopes of confining it, but that actually maintains it. The source of the pain may have gone away, but the wall is still there and it’s still painful. So breathe through the pain as the comfortable breath goes through. Make sure it goes through and doesn’t stay stopped at the wall formed by the pain.

You may sense that as you breathe, you’re using the painful parts of the body to do the breathing. They’re the most obvious parts when there’s pain in different sections. So think of the more comfortable parts doing the breathing. The painful parts get a free ride. Think of the breath permeating them and going out to the other side. See what that does.

At the same time, you’re changing the balance of power. Instead of running away from the pain, you face it, and you’ve got some ammunition to face it with.

Then the next steps are to try to understand what are the perceptions that you have around the pain. This is where Ajahn Maha Bua was good. When he talks about perceptions, that’s mental fabrication. But mental fabrications come together with verbal fabrications. In other words, the way you talk to yourself. It also comes together with the act of attention and the factor of name and form in dependent co-arising. So attention has to do with the questions you ask. Verbal fabrication has to do with the stories you tell yourself.

You start questioning your perceptions, questioning your stories around the pain. One of the big stories you may have is that the pain has been here for such an amount of time and it’s going to continue being here for such an amount of time. All of a sudden you’ve got the present moment weighed down by past and future pain. So that’s a story you’ve got to stop.

The past pain is gone. Tell yourself it’s nowhere to be found. You can’t go rummaging back in the past to find it. It’s gone. It’s no longer there to weigh you down. Future pain hasn’t come yet. Why do you have this story where you stitch things together — the pain was here and it’s going to be there? Why do you do that? Just try to be with the pain as it is right now.

Then you can question your perceptions. Do you see the pain as being the same thing as the body? As I said, sometimes we use the painful parts of the body to do the breathing, as if they were one and the same thing. So can you see that the body is made of the properties of earth, water, wind, fire — solidity, liquidity, energy, warmth? The pain is something else. It may seem to be solid or it may seem to be hot. But those are perceptions that we’ve attached to the pain. Can you separate them out?

Sometimes you try to separate them and they go on their own. So you get at it in a more indirect way. Just ask yourself, where is the sharpest point of the pain right now? Asking that question and following through changes the balance of power again. Instead of running away from the pain, you run at it.

Like the stories of the forest ajahns doing walking meditation at night and getting more and more convinced that there’s a tiger crouching beside the path. Instead of running away from the tiger, they run at it. It turns out there was nothing there.

So maybe there’s nothing to run away from in the pain. And you find that if you start tracing down where the sharpest point of the pain is, it moves. It avoids you. Especially if you learn to make your focus the kind of focus that doesn’t bear down on things. The focus is more open.

That’s when you’ve been working with the breath, you’ve learned that if you want to keep the breath comfortable, you don’t put too much pressure on it. You stay steadily with one spot as your center, but you think of that spot as being wide open, connecting with everything else. The same way you follow the sharpest point of the pain with that soft but steady focus. And it’ll move, because you’re giving it a chance to move.

You find that there will come a point where it suddenly separates out on its own like cream separating out of milk when it hasn’t been homogenized.

You can ask yourself if the pain is a solid block. What’s its shape? What’s its color in your mind? Remind yourself pain has no shape, it has no color. Those are just perceptions. Drop those perceptions. See what happens.

Is it just momentary flashes of pain arising, passing away? If you have that perception, ask yourself when it comes flashing in, does it come at you or does it go away from you? Try to hold in mind the perception that as soon as you sense it, it’s already going away. So you’re not a target.

These are calming perceptions. At the same time you’re asking questions that calm things down. You’re telling yourself stories that calm things down. All based on that intention. Trying to see how to keep the mind from being invaded by the pain. Or if it has invaded, not allowing it to remain in the mind.

That means you allow the pain to stay in the body. You’re not making it your purpose to make it go away. But you want to be aware of it. So you’re not sitting here waiting, when will the pain go away? When will the pain go away? You’re asking yourself now, how can I be right here, next to the pain, but not pained by it? Be with the pain, but not suffer from it.

Sometimes when you separate things out like this, the pain will go away. Again, that’s because what you’ve been doing around the pain has actually been continuing to create the pain. Other times it’ll still be there. That’s the raw material coming in from your past karma right now. But it’s there in the body. It doesn’t have to be in the mind.

Remember the Buddhist comment about wisdom — it’s not seeing the oneness of all things, it’s seeing things as separate. Things that you’ve held together in the past, you begin to realize they are separate things. Because they’re separate, they don’t have to weigh things down.

So remember, you want to maintain that original intention. Not that the pain go away, but simply that it not invade the mind and remain. And you’re here to find perceptions that calm the effect of the pain on the mind. Ways of talking to yourself, questions that you want to ask that calm the effect on the mind.

That puts you in the driver’s seat. Because the pain may come and go based on past karma. But the effect it has on the mind is something you can change right now.

We’ve got these tools. The Buddha points them out to you. The forest ajahns give you some ideas on how you can use them. It’s up to you now to develop these skills.

When you have these skills, it puts you in a much better position. You can treat the pain with a little less fear. And when you don’t have fear of pain, that’s one less thing that the world can use against you.

We see how people are driven, driven, driven by pain. And how people take advantage of other people’s fear of pain. When the mind is not invaded by pain, it’s not only for your well-being right now, but it’s also for your greater independence at large.

One Arm Dead Hang

I did it! One arm dead hang! 5 seconds each arm! Wild. And I didn’t rip my arm out of my shoulder in the process! It took two months of preparation and daily two-arm dead hangs at 60-90 seconds and progress seemed slow. And then today I just felt like it deserved a quick try. It was a huge leap forward going one arm at a time. Will build from here. Excellent.

UPDATE April 14, 2026: Got the one arm dead hang up to 15 seconds now. Progress!

Meditate, Act, Release

There are three skills I use to help clear my mind. They are simple to understand on the surface but difficult to master at depth So, I practice every day and hope for the best. They all support each other, but each one has its own character, demands, and rewards. You can do one. You can do two or three or even more if you want to craft your own list. Whatever. I just chose these three since three is easy to remember and practice every day.

So, here’s my little list: meditate, act, release. That’s it.

Meditate

Most people think meditation means relaxing. It doesn’t. It’s training. You are teaching your mind to do something it will resist, which is to concentrate on one thing at a time without getting distracted by random thoughts.

Here’s what actually happens when you sit down to meditate. Within a few seconds your mind starts drifting. You think about something you said yesterday. You think about what to eat for dinner. You think about some problem at work, or something you saw online earlier that annoyed you. You think about thinking. And then you realize you’ve completely forgotten what you were supposed to be concentrating on. So you start again. And then the drift happens again. You start again. And again. That process, the noticing and the returning, is the practice. That’s the whole thing. If you can get that far you are a pro! Most people quit after just a few seconds of meditation.

What you’re building is the ability to hold your attention where you want it to be. That sounds boring and obvious until you realize how rarely you actually do it throughout your day. Most of us run around on autopilot doing bits and pieces of stuff that crosses our path. The mind wanders and we follow it, usually into some thought that isn’t immediately useful, isn’t especially interesting, and isn’t even real because it’s either some memory from the past or some worry about the future. Meditation trains you to notice this process and redirect your mind back to the present moment — a mantra, the breath, or whatever you chose to concentrate on. Most people never master the ability to concentrate.

The payoff is not mystical. It’s practical. When your mind is trained to focus, you think more clearly. You waste less mental energy on useless thoughts. And when something genuinely demands your full attention, you can actually give it. That’s a rare skill. And it compounds over time. Remember, you need this skill to achieve anything of value. Focus isn’t optional. And absolutely everything in life attacks your focus. So, meditate and learn how to fight back!

There are many meditation techniques. I use a simple breath awareness method combined with listening to short dharma talks. Others use mantras, body scans, or silently counting. The technique doesn’t matter. What matters is that you sit down and do it every day without fail. Even ten minutes. Even five. Just do it. The consistency is the point and you can grow the duration over time. If you can get up to 30 minutes twice a day you will be a rare person indeed.

Act

The second skill is action. Not big dramatic action. Just the daily discipline of doing the next thing.

The reason action matters so much, especially in the context of the other two skills on this list, is that an undone task is a tax on your mind. It sits there. It takes up space. It returns to you at inconvenient moments, usually when you’re trying to sleep or trying to concentrate on something else. Most people carry around enormous mental loads made up entirely of things they haven’t done yet. And that load gets heavier over time. It can drive you crazy. It’s more obvious when you are meditating, which can be especially infuriating. But at least it’s obvious that the situation needs fixing.

The initial solution is simple. Write stuff down. Make a list. Work the list. It’s a relief just to get stuff out of your head. A task that lives on paper stops living in your head. That alone is worth something. But then you actually have to take some action. And that’s where the skill comes in because doing things requires a kind of momentum that doesn’t come automatically. You have to start. Starting is the hardest part for most people.

If you keep telling yourself you’re going to do something and you never actually do it, at some point it’s not really a plan. It’s avoidance dressed up as planning.

Act. Do something. Make one call. Write the first paragraph. Send the message. Make some notes. Break the problem into pieces and move one piece today and cross that off the list. The goal isn’t perfection. The goal is motion. If brute force is necessary to get started, use it. If anger is necessary, use it.

And here’s what people often miss about motion. It builds on itself. Each small thing you complete right now makes the next thing slightly easier to start. That’s not a metaphor. Action generates a kind of forward energy that inaction never produces no matter how much you think about it. The opposite is also true. Every day you don’t move on something makes it harder to move on it tomorrow. Inaction has momentum too. It just runs in the wrong direction.

The practical implication to this is that it almost doesn’t matter where you start. Pick something. Do it. The momentum will carry you further than you expected, and you’ll find yourself re-arranging things in some order after you get started. A mind that is moving through its problems feels entirely different from a mind that is buried under them. Be as assertive as possible with this. Even aggressive.

Release

Release means letting go. It means accepting that you cannot handle everything, fix everything, understand everything, or even keep up with everything. And especially now, when world events move faster than any reasonable person can track, the pressure to stay on top of it all is constant and completely impossible to satisfy.

The world is loud. It’s full of people and institutions with a strong interest in keeping your attention locked onto things you cannot control and problems you cannot solve. The news cycle is relentless. The crises pile up. All of your friends are melting down. And if you let it, all of the madness will colonize your mind and leave you feeling anxious and exhausted without having actually done anything useful.

Releasing is not quitting. It’s not indifference. It’s the recognition that your attention is finite and that you have to protect it. You release what you can’t change. You release outcomes you can’t control. You release the need to have an opinion on every single thing that happens in the world. You release old grievances that aren’t serving you. You release the idea that you need to figure everything out before you can move forward.

This takes practice. Letting go is not natural. The mind wants to grab every thought that comes its way. It wants to resolve and conclude and fix. But some things don’t resolve. Some things just have to be lived with, set down, and walked away from. Practice dropping things on the floor. Dump it. Say no.

The good news is that meditation and action both help with this. Meditation trains you to watch thoughts float by without thinking them. And action moves you through problems so they don’t just pile up and fester. Release is the third leg of this little stool.

Summary

None of these three skills has a beginning or an end. They are all ongoing. You don’t master them and move on. You practice them the way musicians practice scales or athletes practice footwork. Every day. Imperfectly. But consistently.

And these skills aren’t really separate. That’s the other thing worth understanding. Meditation makes action easier because a focused mind wastes less energy on doubt and distraction. Action makes release easier because you’re actually moving through problems rather than just stewing in them. Release makes meditation easier because you’re not dragging a pile of unresolved tension into every session. Each one reinforces the others. When one slips, the others feel it. When one gets stronger, the others benefit.

That’s why the list is short. Three things. All connected. Worth doing every day.

Eight Kilograms

I lost 8 kgs these last 12 months. It’s all part of rehab. I’m at weight now so no need to lose more. I didn’t actually try, but I do have the desire to be as light as possible but maintain as much muscle as possible. In fact, I’ll probably gain a kg or two as I build more muscle and bone and more connective tissue. I’m only interested in lean mass now. Whatever fat comes along with that process naturally is fine. I’ve had the exact same diet over the last year, but I’m lifting much more heavily now so that additional work is clearly burning away any excess fat. I’m a lot stronger now in all areas and gaining noticeable muscle — finally. Can swim 4x as long now, and I can finally kick like a normal human being. So, the pool is great.

There were a few setbacks (one very serious) in the last year, but I’ve recovered relatively quickly from all of them. That itself is a surprise. Previously, a crash could set me back for several years so this is clearly a new day. The dead hang, horse stance, squat, planks, lifts, and swims are all coming along very well too. It’s a slow process, and full recovery will ultimately take years. But there is obvious progress now.

Another Miracle on Ice

Nice little moment for hockey fans recently. Forty-six years after the Miracle on Ice, the US men’s hockey team beat Canada 2-1 on February 22nd to win the gold medal at the Milan Cortina Winter Olympics in Italy. And it happened on the exact anniversary of that famous 1980 win. That’s interesting. Did they script that? I have to think so. It’s too perfect. I’d certainly book it like that for sure.

But to understand why this gold medal may have hit so differently for American hockey players, you have to know a bit about what came before. The US and Canada have been meeting in the Olympics since 1920. And for most of that history, Canada owned the top position just like they’ve pretty much owned hockey for generations. And even when professional NHL players started competing in the Olympics in 1998, the Canadiens still maintained their superiority. They beat the Americans in the gold medal game in 2002 in Salt Lake City, and then again in 2010 in Vancouver. And last year, Canada knocked the US out again in overtime at the 4 Nations Face-Off. The Americans kept getting close but kept falling short.

Also, for decades there has been a serious rivalry between the Americans and the Canadians in the NHL. Back when I was a kid in New York we were supposed to hate the Canadians, which was odd to me since most players at that time in the NHL were Canadian. And I loved the Montreal Canadiens. They were unreal back then. In fact, the first hockey game I went to in person was to see the Montreal Canadiens. They blew me away. Such speed. Just beautiful. But I lived on Long Island and loved the upstart Islanders, too, so over time they became my team as they went on to win 4 Stanley Cups. I hated the Rangers in NYC and the Flyers in Philadelphia, sure, absolutely. But that’s just competitive sports. I never hated the Canadian teams just because they lived in Canada. If they were playing my team, sure, spill some blood. But that’s temporary. And it’s not the same thing as blindly following some manufactured political conflict.

That’s also why I really rarely watched the Olympics aside from catching clips in the news. When I was a kid the Olympic games seemed boring. I couldn’t wait for that never-ending two weeks to end so I could watch something else on TV. Then over time I realized that the Olympics as an event was too political for me to take seriously. Also, the events within the games didn’t interest me that much as an adult. I really only follow a few sports anyway such as football, hockey, racing, and fighting. Now, I didn’t care much about Olympic athletes being patriotic to their respective countries, that’s fine. I’d probably do the same if I were in that position. So, no objections to all of that. Instead, what bothered me over the years was all the inane commentary in the media by mindless mobs decade after decade pushing one agenda or another. Relax. It’s just sports. But yet again, and right on schedule, the propagandists have tried their very best to wreck things with their constant complaining throughout the Olympics. Why we let idiocy in the commentariat ruin everything I’ll never know. I’m glad to see, though, that the U.S. hockey players basically laughed it off.

Anyway, when Jack Hughes scored at 1:41 into overtime on Sunday, the weight of all those previous American near-misses made the moment feel bigger than normal. This was not just a win. It was the win American hockey players had been waiting decades for. And they got it against the one team that mattered most to them. So, good on the Americans.

But the real story of the game was probably the goalie, Connor Hellebuyck. He stopped an insane 41 of 42 shots, including 27 right from the slot. Canada had every chance to win big, but they couldn’t get anything past Hellebuyck. Hughes put it nicely after the game by saying that Hellebuyck was the best player on the ice by far. He was right. Many times serious athletes praise others on the team because they can easily recognize excellence among their peers. It’s obvious. And they all know how hard it is to achieve those skills.

The US went a perfect 6-0 in the tournament and outscored other teams 26-9. The Americans earned every bit of of their victory. Let Canada cry till the next time and we’ll fight again then. That’s the way it is. It goes both ways. Always has.

Aside from the hockey itself, the most moving moment came after the game. The team brought Johnny Gaudreau’s kids onto the ice during the celebration and honored their friend who was killed in 2024 in a tragic and unbelievably senseless accident. Read about it. My God. The players on the American team carried his memory with them the whole tournament, and that tribute said everything about what this team meant to each other.